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|  down, really down. i have been reflecting on myself for the past one month. 1. i am so selfish 2. i am so not a good friend 3. i dont make enough effort to give to others 4. i am such a bitch 5. i deserve it 6. i am so dominating, such that i'm so irritating 7. i criticize others but i nvr do so to myself, which i should 8. i am such a person tt ppl feels i look down on them 9. i am the lousiest delegator in the world 10. I SUCK. i know it's wrong to think that but it does hurts me. and it's because, i didn't do enough to make ppl do so much for me either. i broke my record. or not mentioning a single thing abt me feeling so down for ONE MONTH to anyone, until yesterday. i have learnt not to display my feelings to ppl. i think it's a good thing (: been so long since i cried, no time to cry. sometimes crying is a good way to vent frustrations and unhappiness bah. so much been's on my mind for the past one month that i keep forgetting things, like WTH. like almost forgetting to alight from the bus, forgetting to ask permission from tutor, daydreaming during lecture.................................. i have nvr felt like i'm such a bitch before. although i am speaking truthfully nao. but i have nvr felt so guilty and like i'm so packed with so much excuses. AND yes, they're excuses, i shouldnt excuse myself. there's no excuse for being late, no excuse for skipping lessons, no excuses for everything. i must say, secondary teachers really did make a difference in my life, like what weilin said. which i used to not give a damn abt it. yeah, like what mrs oon used to tell us, there shouldnt be excuses. i score badly for exams not because i didnt manage to finish studying, not cause i cannot finish the paper on time, not cause the paper is difficult, not cause i'm careless. all these are just excuses. EXCUSES. i can only blame myself. yeah, what goes around from me comes back to me. so i deserved it. 我應該只付出, 不求回報. for the past one month, i have learnt to see things more clearly. and it really hurts me. and yeah, i should improve on myself. thanks meiwah and karkoon, for making me confide in you guys (: i really.....need a break. TAG REPLIES: > AUDREY: hahaha, okay (: idk what to say :| my bday also guo le one month, no need to do anything le lah. hahaha :X > mingxuan: hahaha, no problem! and you tried sleeping earlier le! ;D hen hao! so many ppl falling sick recently :/ TAKE CARE!  |  |
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